This week has definitely been different.
Like, different from any other week I have ever had. And it's not just a feeling. And it's not just because of the experiences. It almost feels like, I walked through another set of doors.
Some things are crazy easier. Some things are still my own baggage and weighing me down.
Things have definitely been ramping up to this feeling since January. but this week started with my meditation class in Laguna on Sunday. The weather was simply stunning. And as we expanded our minds, I could see many a sailboat out on the blue ocean expanding their views. It sure felt like we were being smiled upon.
I have been meditating for several years now and this was one of the weirder experiences I have been through.
If asked, I would have told you my body was going to burst open (not exactly good and not exactly bad) with all the electricity.
There was a flickering fast light in the corner of my eyes, though they were shut.
I felt like I was asleep, though I was very aware of all going on around me auditorily.
As we all came back to, we all remarked how this felt completely different. What wasn't different, was drinking wine and eating fruit out on the veranda watching the waves lap against the shore. Peter Brady and I drove home discussing ideologies and philosophizing about this, that, the girl the gold watch and everything - ha.
I wasn't expecting this week to be any different than normal.
It has turned out to be a week where I can't ever go back to old ways of thinking.
In the best way.
It's like a light was turned on and things became clearer. And it's like I became the universe's pet this week.
I have 3 photoshoots scheduled for this weekend, My hair goddess D called me for a highlight (to be a model for her class - champagne hair for hooch prices), my car repair which was supposed to be $350 was going to be possibly be half off, ended up being 100% off and now, one of my very good friends, with whom I also happen to work, got a fabulous new position. I am deeply sad to see her go but I am thrilled beyond belief that the work she has put into changing her life is showing movement this week too.
I am learning a new editing program and photography and creativity projects are just flowing out of me non-stop.
My meditation coach also gave me the book "Tattoos of the Heart" by Father Greg Boyle about the priest who worked with inner city kids to create the Homeboy/Homegirl Industries. In a surprise Wednesday email, Jazzy invited me to a gala honoring them this Saturday!
I know it's been awhile since I have written. It would be a fool's errand to discuss all the wonderful, horrible and funny adventures that have occurred since we last had contact. Suffice it to say, there have been amazing times. My first return-blog entry isn't about something funny or horrible. But a lot of the energy around me is definitely wonderful.
Recently, I accomplished something I had wanted to for a long time: to sing with a live band for the first time at a party. I am still in love with Peter Brady. My friends: Mads, Jazzy, GC, Leigh, Anna, Zappy and Reb are still very much in my life and wreaking all kinds of fun havoc. And creativity is still my religion. My mom came into town for Easter and brought a whole new set of comedic moments back into my view. Life is good. Life is moving. Life is zooming through me at warp speed.
So if there is still anyone there, I hope you come back along on this new warp speed ride with me.
Los Angeles is ours! Let's make this thing dance!